Visions of Loveliness

You know that old diet advice that tells you to picture yourself thin, to imagine yourself wearing beautiful clothes and looking your best? Well, I could never do that. I am an accountant. Imagination isn't my strong suit.

But today...today I caught myself smiling as I caught a glimpse of the future me in my mind's eye. And I looked pretty damned hot.

Is This The Opportunity I've Been Hoping For?

I doubt it is wise for me to write in much detail about this seeing that my blog is open for the world to read. But I don't use my full name anywhere so I will at least write something vague about it. I am simultaneously over-the-moon excited about this and fearful of the negative impact my obesity might have on the opportunity that has presented itself. I couldn't not blog about it.

There is a job. On paper it is THE job for me. It is in the industry I love. It is in the city that I love. It is a promotion for me. It has a career path for future growth. I have every single qualification they are looking for. Every single one. It seems like everything I have wished for in my current job but have not be able to get.

So I am meeting the recruiter who is handling this position next week. I have spoken to her on the phone and she is very excited about my experience and how it will fit in with what the hiring company is looking for.

That's all the good stuff. But niggling in the back of my mind is how my obesity might play into this. First of all, I really don't have a professional wardrobe. I literally have nothing to wear to that is even remotely appropriate for a professional job interview. Second of all, let's face facts and just admit people judge books by their covers. And my cover shows a very fat woman. And my experience is that people don't like fat women very much. Is it even possible for me to overcome my appearance with my qualifications and my personality?

Whatever the answer to that question is, I am still going to go through with meeting the recruiter and (hopefully) an interview with the company. I just can't let this opportunity go by without even trying. I won't say "No" to myself even though I am deathly afraid they will say "No" to me. But I am going to be very self-conscious.

And I need to figure out where I can find something professional-looking in my size. Any suggestions?

Happy Thanksgiving

On this day of gratitude, I give thanks for:

• A family who loves me
• Friends I can be myself with
• Reconnecting with my cousin
• My supportive blogger friends
• My sweet little dog who loves me, entertains me, and keeps my feet warm in bed
• A job that is secure
• Health insurance
• My home
• Being born in a free country
• My body that remains healthy in spite my not treating it as well as I should

What are your grateful for today?

Today's Good Things

1. I only had to work half a day today.
2. I was able to get a pedicure in my free time this afternoon.
3. Someone who I didn't think would take charge of a project did and now I don't have to.

Today's Good Things

1. The coffee bar at my office has an ice machine that dispenses that really good, fun to crunch ice like they have at Sonic.
2. I got a phone call from one of my favorite friends today and she made me laugh.
3. Watching an old episode of "Arrested Development" (best show that has ever been on television...the one where Tobias auditions to become a understudy for "The Blue Man Group".

Today's Good Things

1. I have my work under control and am meeting my deadlines without stress.
2. I have a comfy bed and a good book to curl up with later.
3. My sweet little old dog loves me and I love him.